I'm still here

I feel like everything gets in the way of my blog time.  I need to just get a new lap top and make the time for it.  My husband's computer seems to be the only option I've had lately.  I have a desktop in the bedroom but it's not easy to escape there with my children.  Also, I've been so busy that I feel I've hardly been at home for the past week or more.  

The end of December and January are full of important days that keep us running to Kansas City and back.  Also, with the baby coming in a little over 3 weeks, there are plenty of doctor's appointments to attend.  I feel like I'm so exhausted and have no time to sleep.  Even now, as I type this, I should be sleeping.  It's 1:30 in the morning here and I'm so sore I cannot get comfortable to sit down, lay down, or sleep.  

I'm pretty much the size of a planet...

The worst part about this picture, is that it was taken a couple of weeks ago, so I'm even bigger now.  I don't walk, I waddle, and by the end of the day, every day, I'm so uncomfortable that I don't want to do anything but lay down with my feet up.

I'm so stressed about not being ready for little Miss Rylie to be here that I know I'm driving my husband nuts.  Pretty much all of the big things that we had for Ben and Sydney, with the exception of the bassinet, need to be replaced now.  They've all made it through two babies, but now it's time to replace them.  Also, clothing... This shouldn't be an issue because Sydney isn't even two yet and they will be born at almost the same exact time of year, but because Ben grew out of the small clothes so fast, we didn't buy as many of the really small sizes for Sydney, and she didn't grow very quickly at all.  Most of her clothes from that time are stained or so worn out.  I suppose I should venture to the garage to see what we have in storage.  In the meantime, I need to just get my rear in gear and get shopping.  Shawn told me to put together a list and he'll make sure it happens.  I'm just getting nervous.  I think that's probably pretty normal and I'm sure it all relates back to the nesting thing.

I finally got myself a new day planner.  I've been lost this month without one.  

I find myself having to call the doctor's offices to find out what time and day appointments are scheduled for the kids and myself as well as who is supposed to be doing what, when and where.  It's hard enough to keep all of that straight without the pregnancy brain but with it, I'm totally lost.

Thursday, Shawn and I celebrated our 4 year wedding anniversary.  I know some people are thinking that we've not been married very long or that we're still newly weds or whatever.  Believe me, I hear it all.  Please, remember that while we've only been married for 4 years, we had our 4 month old son in our wedding and as of next month we'll have actually been together for 10 years.  My husband can be such a romantic sometimes and this is one of those occasions.  For our anniversary, he surprised me with a gorgeous bouquet of 4 yellow roses and 4 calla lilies, and a big box of Christopher Elbow chocolates.  

It might not have donned on me to take a picture of the chocolates before I started eating them, so here's a picture of most of the box.  

Believe me, those chocolates taste even better than they look.  Absolutely amazing.  Then, Shawn took me out to eat at Stix, a Japanese steak house.  Very yummy food with a fun experience.  There were two, young children sitting at our table and they were so excited by the throwing of shrimp, and the fire, and just all of the theatrics of the meal that it made me excited at the prospect of taking our children there in the future.

Ben has decided that he is boycotting sleep.  He's up super late at night and getting up before the sun rises in the morning.  I've decided that his TV will remain unplugged until 8 am most days because I don't want him getting up just to watch his shows.  He needs to sleep and so does the rest of the family.  We're all sleep deprived here and I'm hoping to fix it quickly.  I think it's more Ben rebelling because of Shawn's job and the talk of his upcoming overnight traveling.  It's going to be very hard on poor Benny, which I can understand.  My dad traveled for work too and it was very hard on me, especially since we were so close.  I promised Ben though, that we will do everything we can to make sure we have a fun time on those nights and maybe, sometimes we'll get to take Shawn to and from the airport so Ben can see the plane and whatnot.  

Ugh, alright, I think I've said enough for tonight.  I need to at least attempt to get some sleep.  I'll leave you with a couple of fun pictures from last weekend, when we were in Kansas City visiting Shawn's parents and playing outside in the wind with the kiddos.