Attempting to be a Super Mom

Friday marks 7 years since the loss of my Dad.  I wish I could say that this time of year gets easier as time goes on, but it really doesn't.  I push my feelings down deep inside and busy myself with house work or kids activities.  I'm not really dealing with it, but this is the only way I know how.  Growing up, we were raised to not really talk about our problems.  Just sweep them under the rug and pretend they aren't there.  This doesn't work too well for me, as I'm quite emotional and not so good at ignoring the problem.  If I'm mad and ignoring a problem, it comes out in a very angry burst eventually, if I'm sad it comes out in several blubbering tear filled moments. With this grief, it comes in waves of panic attacks.  I really probably should have Xanax for days like these.  There will be moments, or even hours at a time, that I'm pretty sure I'm having a heart attack.  There is no warning, it just hits and stays awhile.  S...

Oh boy, we have been oh so busy here. There has been work, school, dance, family get togethers, birthdays, an anniversary, and so much more.  That's not including all the prep for what is about to happen for our family.  In the next 4 months, we will have Sydney and Rylie's birthdays, the birth of our new baby, and an out of state wedding we will be attending.  (Yes traveling with a 1 month old... what can I say, we are brave parents.) Rylie got her big girl bed!!!  More importantly, she is actually sleeping in her big girl bed. Her bed came before the bedding and the wall decals, so for the first few nights she slept with Ben's old crib sheet and Sydney's old crib blanket but she didn't care. Here she is now that the bed and area have been made her own.  She loves it!   I finally got the kids school pictures up.  I need to get a more updated one of Rylie.  The kids don't even know who she is, in that picture.  I worked on...

It's rest time here in the Tiemann house.  I try to do rest time for the kids everyday.  The big kids can nap or just lay in their beds and watch tv or read.  Usually I catch them playing with toys, but as long as they are somewhat quiet I don't say anything.  I love my kids and love spending time with them, but it's nice to get that little break during the day, to blog, nap, paint my nails, or watch a show my kids can't or shouldn't watch.   Today, I'm watching Chicago Fire . My father-in-law got me addicted.  I like crime dramas and medical dramas.  This just so happens to be right in between the two.  So good and really good people in it.  Besides, what lady doesn't like a hot man in fireman gear.  Warning, it is a little gross... I'm also snuggling with my sweet kitty. ...and putting off putting away laundry. I've been admiring this beautiful flower my husband got me for our anniversary. He knows me so well...

I feel like everything gets in the way of my blog time.  I need to just get a new lap top and make the time for it.  My husband's computer seems to be the only option I've had lately.  I have a desktop in the bedroom but it's not easy to escape there with my children.  Also, I've been so busy that I feel I've hardly been at home for the past week or more.   The end of December and January are full of important days that keep us running to Kansas City and back.  Also, with the baby coming in a little over 3 weeks, there are plenty of doctor's appointments to attend.  I feel like I'm so exhausted and have no time to sleep.  Even now, as I type this, I should be sleeping.  It's 1:30 in the morning here and I'm so sore I cannot get comfortable to sit down, lay down, or sleep.   I'm pretty much the size of a planet... The worst part about this picture, is that it was taken a couple of weeks ago, so I'm even bigger now.  I don't walk,...