Packing or Not

Today, I'm supposed to be packing my bags for my trip to South Carolina tomorrow.  I, however, am a monster procrastinator. Guess what I have packed so far? Absolutely nothing! I mean seriously, my bag is sitting empty, collapsed, and upside down on the desk behind my computer, I'm literally looking at it. Scowling at it rather. Did I mention I hate packing?

I'm going to take this time, when I should be packing to talk to you a little about me.  I have anxiety. Anxiety in that I don't like to do things outside of my comfort zone, which is pretty much anything outside of my routine. When I say, I don't like to do these things, I mean it makes me really nervous and sick to my stomach. It stresses me out and triggers my IBS. That's what this trip is doing to me. I'm so stressed and sick just thinking about traveling without my husband and children.  They are my security blanket.

I'm going to be without my kids, my world, for FOUR WHOLE DAYS! I've never done this before. This is normal for Shawn, as he travels a lot for work, but he assures me that the way I'm feeling right now, is exactly how he feels before he leaves for every single trip.

I'm going to try to make the best of this trip. I'm going to try and enjoy myself and be present in every step. I plan to take plenty of videos and photos. I'll be with my mom and sister and the whole trip is to watch my brother graduate from basic.

Alright, since I started this post, I've gotten lots of work done on videos, picked kids up from school, taken kids to dance and an art class, and now have helped kids with filling out cards to mail out for their school magazine sale fundraiser.  I've even figured out with Shawn that we are ordering pizza for dinner.  Guess what I haven't done... Packed a single item.

Alright, I need to get working. Or at least enjoy some more snuggles with my babies.

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