Most of the time I'm pretty laid back and don't act like much gets to me. In reality, I'm just taking it all in, and not letting it back out. Everytime people walk all over me, everytime someone hurts my feelings and I don't say anything, or when I get too much on my plate and don't get enough accomplished. It all just piles up and piles up until I either explode or turn into a stressed out, sick mess. Today is one of those days for me. I'm having a hard time functioning and am still in my pjs. My body aches and I have a terrible headache that my Zyrtec today didn't help. I'm a bit teary and I'm worried about everything... money, time, Easter, and the kids going outside to play (I have to be out there to supervise and once again it becomes a time issue). It doesn't matter how many times I'm assured that everything is ok and will continue to be ok, I can't get rid of this feeling. I just shut down. I'm a person that likes a million things going on at once, or a full agenda, but I'm also a person that likes to do nothing and be lazy. Sometimes this busy world I live in, and have created becomes too much and I just want to cuddle up with my kids, turn something good on the tv, eat some yummy chocolate and shut off for a bit. Right now, I'm frantic... I want to run around like a mad man and get everything done, but I don't have the time or ability for that right now, so the shut down is starting.
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